Love...get hurt...and love again
I have been reading what I have written in my journal and I realized that it had been months since I’ve written last. The last entry was 11/12/05. I was surprised to read what I have written. It’s about the line from a song which goes “ time heals all wounds they say and I should know, it seems like forever, but now I’m letting you go” I had written this entry when I was daydreaming and at the same time reflecting on what had happened in my life, of the things I’ve done and failed to do. And more specifically on the time when I had told him that I love him. Was that a big mistake? I really don’t know. But one thing’s for sure is that I know that wherever time takes me, I will never regret the time that I had told him I love him, knowing that I was just being honest to my feelings for him. I know that a lot of things changed the moment I told him the truth, but even before I told him, I know things just wouldn’t be the same anymore. I feel sad for what happened to the friendship that we had, but I am still hoping that someday, that friendship will be renewed. Today, as I am writing this one down, or rather typing this one, I can honestly tell myself that my feelings for him was really over and done with. Maybe the love I feel for him is still there but not anymore as intense as it had been before. I guess, that’s normal and that love will never really fades, because he had been a part of my life at some point in time, and there will always be happy memories together to reminisce. Hey, life goes on… falling in love is part of life, take the risk, get hurt, and love again. I guess it’s really true that as time passes by, the hurt and the pain you felt after a rejection will eventually ease, and what will remain is the scar. But as you reflect on it in the future, you will be proud to say to yourself, “hey, I survived, and I had the scars to prove it”