For How Long?

If loving you can be this painful
Why then do I still love you?
Is it because loving you is also part of my existence?
Feelings that I cannot control nor suppress?
Feelings that no matter how hard I try to erase, just can’t be erased?
When will the time comes that I’ll finally get over these feelings I have for you?
How long will I have to wait and endure the pain?
How long shall I have to convince myself that I’m waiting for nothing
How many times do I have to cry myself at night?
How many times do I have to get hurt just to admit the truth?
That no matter how painful it is,
No matter how many tears I’ve cried
No matter how long I wait,
You and I will only be just friends.